NO CAR, NO LIFE

So my husband decide to go out to a party on saturday night and against my wishes he took my car which I have continuously told him not to drive but no he does not listen. So sunday morning at 6:00am he is ringing off my phone he was around the cornr from the house and slid in some water and ran into a tree, so now here I am carless.

POEM OF THE DAY

I hear voices, my thoughts are not my own
I hear voices, whether I am asleep or awake
I hear voices, some happy some sad
I hear voices, telling me I should be dead

POEM OF THE DAY

Sometimes I cry for you
Sometimes I sing for you
Sometimes I laugh with you
Sometimes I make love with you
Sometimes I cook for you
Sometimes I clean for you
Sometimes I'm angry with you
Sometimes I fight with you
But always I will die for you

POEM OF THE DAY

My heart is empty, my soul is impure
I want to see Jesus, but I can't be sure
Life has sent me road blocks, and I have stumbled and fallen
I have always managed to get up, and lift myself high
In the end I hope to survive and live a happy life

Babies on the brain

So I went to babies r us today to get a gift for my friend's baby shower and you could not believe the amount of stuff that a baby need o survive in this day and age, special pillows, diaper covers special mommy pillows.

The cost of having a kid nowadays is like WOW, its seriously has me wondering whether or not kids are right for me not only because of the cost but of the time, I don't know if anyone realizes this but kid are a full time job, feeding, clothing, taking them to the park, piking them up from school yada, yada, yada.

I don't want to be selfish but I like to sleep in on my saturday mornings (my only day off), and I would prefer to spend my free times with my husband or with my niece Arielle, and I am not exactly ms. cook everyday I work 12-14 hours per day, I don't have nough time in my days for kid of my own.

I have spoken to my sister and asked her if she will share Arielle with me and I my brother has 3 daughters and 2 sons, so I have 4 nieces and 2 nephews. What more could a girl ask for. My husband already has one of each so he is not in any rush to have any more.

So at this point in my life after been married for 4 years, I have to ask myself am I ready for kids, Will I ever be ready for kids, Will I make a good mother. The questions keep coming, but here are the answers.

UNUSUAL READING MATERIAL

Everyone knows that I like to read, and over the years my reading preferences have changed " evolved" if you will. Now I am enjoy reading gay erotic stories, what can I say they are fun entertaining and really, really exciting. So what if no one understands why I read them and some might even be offended by them, but what the heck I am a grown woman and I will read whatever I want to.